2014 hasn’t really been my year so far. And, recently I’ve been struggling to find a reason to not think ‘just fuck everyone. I’m done.’ The reason I’m writing this is because I know I’m not the only person who feels like this.
They have been times when I have felt really alone. I’ve cried myself to sleep. I’ve hated myself. I’ve tried to be something I’m not. And, all for nothing. All those things, those feelings, they just made it worse.
I still feel this way. Don’t get me wrong, things are slowly improving. Unfortunately it’s like three steps forward and then two steps backwards. And sometimes that just seems to make things seem even worse.
The only difference is now I know bottling it all up makes it worse. I’m a natural worrier anyway, so just little things make me panic. So you can imagine just how much I beat myself up about the big things!
What I’m trying to say is, I don’t want others to feel alone too. There is no worse feeling than feeling like you are alone. And that feeling just makes everything seem even worse.
So if you’re feeling like this or just want someone to talk to, I’m here. Sometimes it’s easier to open up to someone you’re not close too.
But also remember that your family and friends are also there for you as well. You don’t have to suffer through anything alone.
This wasn’t originally what I was going to write, but it stands.
No matter how bad you think things are, it could always be worse. I can promise you that.